I never thought I would be a "blogger"...what ever that means. However, writing down my feelings has been very theraputic for me and in many ways I blog to my friends on Twitter ...just in 140 words or less...everyday.
My son, who was newly diagnosed with type 1 diabetes, has never been a good eater. When he was born he was both lip and tounge tied and I could not successfully nurse him. Oh I tried...believe me...I tried. The doctors didn't believe in cutting the skin that made him "tied"...they said that it would just stretch out on its own naturally over time. Well...that didn't help that he couldn't latch on right and began to lose too much weight. I was a new mom and the stress of it all was so high that I know it must have been felt by him and that just made it worse. So we switched to formula...also a stress...finding the one type that didn't make him sick. However, finally he began to gain weight as he was supposed to and bottles were his favorite thing.
When it came time to change and start solid foods....battle two!!! He didn't want anything but the bottle. He fought every single stage change. If he would eat a certain food he wouldn't eat it when it was more solid in the next stage. I began covering what he didn't like by making pancakes w/ green beans or sweet potatos or adding apple sauce to his food to cover the tastes he wouldn't eat. Sometimes...this didn't even fool him. He would refuse eating to the point that I would worry and give him what he wanted.
I fought to get him to eat healthier all though his younger years. Tried every thing I could and every thing I read or got advice on...I tried. Finally....I just gave up. The stress in our relationship caused by food was soooo strong it was not healthy. So I decided to just make him what he wanted separate from the rest of the family. I wanted to love him w/out all the stress of food every day.
He grew...and grew both up and out. By age 14 he was 250 lbs and almost 6 foot tall. He was unhappy with his weight but I still couldn't get him to not be a carbaholic. He would find ways to not eat the good stuff and wait for changes to have the bad stuff. I wouln't buy snacks...or have dessert and fhe still would find ways. At school he'd trade foods w/others for the junk....or buy candy from friends.
Then...at age 15 he was 6ft tall and started to bike and exercise more and in the summer...boom the weight just fell off of him. He began drinking a ton of water and wasn't feeling well. Dizzy alot...and as you all know....it was all due to T1 Diabetes. He was put on insulin...at first they thought he might be a T2 cuz of his weight and insulin resistance...but all the tests came back T1 and they took him off Metformin and continued w/the insulin MDI. He has been doing great. They told him he had a limit of 75 carbs /meal and told him to eat healthier. He tried and then ended up just following the 75 carb rule only. Well...recently he started on the OMNIPOD and we did basal testing.
Durning these tests we see that his numbers are great.....as long as he doesn't EAT!!!! So...now.. his next pump class will also be w/the nutritionist again. They will tell him how much better control he will have when he stops eating hight fat high carb foods. Will he listen to them? Will this be what finally makes HIM want to eat better foods? I even took him to a hypnotherapist that councels in food and she said...."I can't make him want to eat healthy if he sees no reason for it or need for it. He has to want to change." Will this be the thing that makes him change??
Will he start eating better because no his life litterally depends on it? I hope so. I love him so much and am so proud of all that he has overcome.....but the battle isn't over.....is it?
He reads my Tudiabetes stuff. He doesn't write on it...but he reads it. So I know he will read my blog. Then he and I will talk about it. We are a great team to fight this battle he has ....but I think... he needs to be the one to step up and take on the battle of food. I can't force him to eat right. He needs to see the need for it.