Here is the thing... i think I'm being a chicken shit
I was (sort of still am) very excited about going on the pump. I received in on the mail, got my pre-training form the Animas rep and now I have been waiting for a month to "get hooked" by my medical team.
Is not that I don't want to, I am actually looking forward to it, but I feel like this is my time to be BAD, have a break before the storm, not test often enough or care that my sugars are back up... I've fallen off the wagon, on purpose, more like I threw myself out of it :/
The pump is sitting on a shelf, staring at me, waiting to be attached. My husband says I should be wearing it around just to get used to it, it makes sense, i did it for a day, i hoped I would be excited enough to wear it with the saline the rep supplied me with BUT I've come up with a million excuses why not, mainly that i don't want to be doing that while i'm also on MDI, that I want to enjoy the last of my freeeeeedooom, taht i play volleyball and it would be a hassle on the beach while the real reason all along is that I'm being a chicken shit.
Should I be wearing it or should I wait til the day we get "married"?