This is what was supposed to be my first day of control .. and it ended up being one of the days in the ZERO list of precontrol !
The day began rather stressful for many reasons, anyway I had every chance to mess everything up and just eat but I didn't and I kept agonizing about it !
When I returned home I ate and took my insulim and slept for 3 hours .. then Iwoke up "still agonized" thinking about overeating without a reason and not taking the shots for it .. but then I didn't .. then when it was right about time for bed .. I did it and screwed everything up !! *after crying for a while I just thought this would be the ultimate cure* .. It just feels like there's a hole inside me that just can't be filled with anything but food .. pretty much exaggerated ?! It's truee .....