Facing the numbers...

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Comment by Toni Crebbin on March 4, 2009 at 9:33pm

Just saw my endo today, and like you, I didn't hit the numbers I was hoping to. Although I was encouraged when he said my monitor download numbers don't match my A1C, so he ordered a test for anemia, and a fructosis test (or something of that sort...blood sugar results for the last 3 weeks rather than the last 3 months). Seems we're always looking for answers "why," but I truly believe that sometimes there is no answer, it just "is," so don't beat yourself up too much. I think you will do great with a pregnancy, and you don't have to be perfect:)

Comment by Nic on February 25, 2009 at 7:08pm

Kristin I know exactly how you feel! I too am on a crusade to get my numbers under 6 and was disappointed when I had my last HbA1c to not be closer to my goal than I got to at that point.

There's no point giving you strategies to achieve it because you sound like you know exactly what you're doing, but all I can say is I think this HbA1c thing is a bit like weight loss - the closer you get to your goal, the harder it gets. And you can't be on your A Game every single day/week/month. As humans we naturally fluctuate.

Ka kaha from New Zealand ('Be Strong')
Nic

Comment by Kristin on February 25, 2009 at 3:31pm

Thanks again to all!

Laura, your words are wise and true! I will re-read them often. To the others, thanks for being sure that I will never feel alone and never without a laugh!

On the way home from worked, I stopped by the grocery store to stock up on low carb snacks and made a late night cooking adventure involving some chickpeas, onions and lots of garlic. My trusty nutrition scale will be dusted off tomorrow and my precise.carb counting restarted. That made all the difference before and it will again! Wishing you all the motivation you need!!!

Comment by Scott on February 25, 2009 at 12:06pm

Hmm... I don;t know about respect, I had plans to be rude to Kristin later

/wink

Just joking, love ya babe!

Comment by Manny Hernandez on February 25, 2009 at 12:00pm

Amiga,
You are an inspiration to all of us in so many ways! Acknowledging we can do better always is the start and, just like you did it before, you can do it again.

Leaving the past where it belongs (like Laura so beautifully wrote) is a good thing... washing your face and starting back so your next numbers are where you want them to be.

Without any conditions, you will always have our love, respect and admiration. Keep it up, girl!

Comment by elaine peterson on February 25, 2009 at 11:26am

You'll do it, Kristin...it's just frustrating getting there. Emotionally, you've got it in you, and practically, you know what you need to do. For me, I find that one feeds off the other. Successes day to day help keep me motivated to do well. You know what has worked for you in the past, watching carbs or checking your numbers frequently, or whatever....and it's not all or nothing, it's just doing the best you can. You will be a great mom!

Comment by Jeffrey on February 25, 2009 at 10:12am

Laura,
Those are such beautiful words of encouragement to Kristin. As everyone knows, we all have our trials and tribulations with this horrific disease and with people like you that offer words of motivation and ecouragement, it makes it all more bearable.

Thank you for what you have given Kristin and thank you for letting me share those words to my own "diabetic problems".

Comment by Laura on February 25, 2009 at 10:07am

Kristin the beautiful thing is all any of has is right now. A minute is gone and there is no promise of another minute.
Let the past stay there so it does not distort your perception of hope for tomorrow. Can't erase it but hope for a better diabetes day ahead.
I have pretty awful control despite trying but a bit ago I let it go and now I have better control because I let it stay behind me.
Your loved and that is pretty awesome

Comment by Kristin on February 25, 2009 at 9:29am

Thanks for the encouraging comments from all!

This is "real life" with diabetes. We face days like today. But it is nice to not face them alone-- so thanks!!

I am ready to forgive and forget the past few months and move on. I wish I felt more certain that I wouldn't fall back into these bad habits again!! I will do my best to make good diabetes management my "normal" habits!

Scott-- when I read your message I subconsciously started cracking my knuckles :) :) :) Funny!

Comment by Scott on February 25, 2009 at 9:18am

Hi Kristin,

Yea, those numbers can get frustrating from time to time, we've all been there. It does require constant management and I've had plenty of times where I just got tired of dealing with it. With me, most of my problems come from treating diabetes almost as a habit, just something you do without thinking about it, like cracking your knuckles.

If nothing else, testing 9-10 times a day and really watching my carb intake has at least made me feel more in control. My son is a baseball player and back in the days when I was coaching I used to tell him "Control your balance and you will control your power" when he would get off balance when batting. Maybe diabetes is like that a little "Control your numbers and you will control your life". I don't worry to much about my A1c, really, it's a nice rough guideline, but for day to day management, I have to manage it day to day. I guess where I was going will that ramble was just take care of today. When today is over, learn from what happened and then take on tomorrow. Baseball happens one pitch at a time, that last pitch really doesn't matter any more. So you're last 3 months weren't where you wanted them to be, sounds like you knew it was coming. But that A1c doesn't really say anything about what the next 3 months will be like. To fix a problem, you have to learn from the past and focus on the future to solve it.

Boy, waxed philosophical there.. Anyone still awake? *tap *tap Is this thing on?

Anyway, you've done it before and you'll do it again!

Scott

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