Lately, I've been feeling happy. Not that I haven't felt happy before, but it just feels like there's constantly a smile inside just waiting to burst. And I've been letting it.
If it were a few months ago, I would be feeling down and beating myself up about my latest A1C that was above 8, but instead I'm only focusing on what comes next- the bringing it down part. I would be upset about the changes that my Endo made that made my body freak out for a few weeks with nightly highs crashing into early morning lows, but I've adjusted and those are almost gone.
I've spent this month immersed in viola it seems, with competitions, rehearsals, concerts and masterclasses. February will be even busier, but I can't wait. Diabetes has stayed tucked in my pocket the entire time, other than those high/lows at night. It's giving me a feeling of "I can manage this."
This month, my average high has gone from in the high 200s to in the high 100s. My average lows dropped for a while with this change, but they're back up into the 60s now, which feels right for me.
Next week I'll be going to the first CGM class, which is so exciting. Right now I'm interested in the Dexcom Seven, which my endocrinologist also said would be a good fit for me. The biggest worry for me is how much it will interfere with my life. I love that it alerts to highs and lows, but I would hate to have something alerting me all the time. Also, there's the whole "it's another thing attached to me" issue, which is a big one. I'm 14, I don't want to be walking around with a ton of medical devices hanging off of me. But I've heard that it's common to wear it for a few weeks and then take a week off and what not, which sounds like something I would end up doing.
A few years ago, I would have never thought that I would be actually excited to have another medical device hooked up, but this is genuinely exciting! :)