I am an idiot. I fired my endo in December, and have not been on any medication for my diabetes since. I also stopped using the Omnipod around November last year. I have not been to any doctor since then, and consequently have not had any thyroid medication since then either. I have an appointment on Friday to see another Dr in OKC, She is just a GP, but has really helped my MIL with all her health problems. I am SO ready to get back on some meds and feel better. I have been feeling like crap.......the few times I have checked my sugars they have been running from 290 to nearly 500...I am SO mad at myself, because I know better.......I have seen people with complications, I know what could happen, or will happen if I don't take care of myself.
Why is it SO hard for me to set my mind to do what I know I need to do? Why do I get to the point of saying, "I really don't care."? Why are the sugar cravings SO bad?
I am going to do this. I am going to take care of myself. I am going to be here and be active with my son and grandchildren someday. I am re-affirming myself right now!!