I have been working so hard to get healthy. The humongous incision from my liver cancer has healed. I have been working on all the back problems they found while scanning for cancer. I told the doctors my back hurt for years. Nothing. Come to find out I had ruptured lumbar discs, lots of them, scoliosis, stenosis in my neck, and I already had sciatica. I have been really killing myself doing physical therapy, riding a bike with the arm things, the elliptical machine, the treadmill with weights, and doing tons of core exercises. The sciatica and the lumbar problem - gone. The stenosis and the scoliosis is killing me as I start doing a lot of arm exercises. No pain, no gain. It hurt bad at first with the lower back, then got better in about a month. All I have to do is fight through this last thing and then I can get my life back. Be patient. You will find another job.
About a week ago I get a sinus infection, I never had asthma ever, but the surgeon punctured my lung taking out the liver tumor so I can't breath well, so let's call it asthma. It gets so hard to breathe that I have to go to the ER to get nebulized, but I can do cardio. Just deal with it...
So I have this stuff draining down my throat, I am sick to my stomach. My neck and back are killing me. I am hot and sweating. I am so sick. Crap.
I go to the doctor. You need a throat scope, referral to ENT. It says here there are abnormal cells in your throat scan from before. I tell the doctor I am having a hard time with my voice, it hurts to talk. I can't swallow, there is stuff in my throat. My stomach hurts. I leave out the back part for his sake. If I say all the stuff that is wrong he will think I am neurotic and do nothing. He says go to the gastro doctor. You have a hernia in your esophagus. It is all connected. Better see pulmonary and the allergist. God.
Oh no, please don't tell me I need another operation.
So I am stuck again with a terrible infection. My BG last night at bed 230, corrected, at 2 am, 288, God. Corrected, wake up at 7 am, 277. Corrected. Now 79. Well, that was painful.
This always happens. I get sick, and then I get sent to a bunch of specialists. I have to wait for the referral to go through, and then wait for the appointments. Then wait for the tests to be ordered, then go to the tests. Fast and do not eat or drink. Wait for the results. Pray you don't have throat cancer. Try not to be angry that nobody will give you a bit of medication for anything until everything is done.
Get ready now to go the physical therapy . . .
I go to the window. My plant, my African violet. Oh man, all the flowers withered, and some of the leaves are brown. Crap, I neglected it. I pull off the dead flowers. I cut off the brown leaves. It looks sparse. I water it. Feed it. I feel bad for operating on my flower.
Sometimes when you hurt a plant, pull off the leaves, it rallies and grows stronger. Sometimes it gets a lot more leaves and then flowers again. Sometime when you do that to a plant, it makes it stronger.
I think with people too. Pain makes people stronger.