There once was a time when I was the best diabetic I could be. I was on top of my game all the time. I was so in tune with my body. I was able to make minor adjustments to my pump on my own. If I saw a bad blood sugar on my meter I would get upset at myself. If it was high, I would think "kidney-failure" or "blindness". If my blood sugar was low I would eat exactly 15 grams of carbohydrates. I tried so hard to take care of myself. Then I don't know what happened...
Maybe it's because I started college. Does anyone else feel like there isn't enough time in the day to manage your diabetes? My blood sugars can be anywhere from the 40's to the 300's. I haven't passed out or had any medical emergency, but I really haven't taken care of myself like I should have.
I can't go a day without both high or low blood sugars. I just feel like there isn't enough time in the day to figure out what went wrong. Sometimes I just change my basal rates right then instead of waiting another day to see if that was the problem. When I see a high blood sugar I don't get the slightest upset. I just correct it. I only get annoyed because I don't feel good. I've been overeating when I'm low, trying to get my sugar up so I could concentrate. My doctor is amazed that I made the dean's list because he doesn't see how I could do it with such a vast range of sugars.
Any tips? How do I get back on track. Please try to be positive and supportive. I am really embarrassed about this. I don't know how I let myself get like this.