Need I say more? Of course there are times I wished I was "normal" but this is my "new normal." I have chosen to love who I am now with my diabetes. I am writing a new chapter in a new book about myself. I will revisit past memories about myself. In the end, it is the past. I am learning to have a love affair with the new me! There is no shame in the new me with a health condition. I say this every morning when I get up. I have it written on my mirror in my bathroom so I do not forget.
Diabetes just means I have to follow a new rule book. From the times we are babies, we are learning about our bodies. We spend years pressing our bodies and minds to go beyond its limits. Eventually we learn what our bodies will do and won't do. We have written a rule book for ourselves. Then diabetes enters our lives and our rulebook becomes outdated information. We have to write another rule book with our new limitations and our expectations. I just assume to make this an enjoyable experience. I can either do battle with my body and/or neglect it or I can learn to make peace with it and be partners with it. In the end, the body will all ways win the war. It is not easier to make love and not war?
I don't regret having Diabetes. Why should you? It has taken some soul searching on my part to come to this conclusion. This is not just a disease....DIABETES IS A LIFESTYLE. We are living and breathing the DIABETIC LIFE! Actually, it has taught me how to valuable life and my health. It is teaching how to bring out my inner warrior spirit and to show everybody I am proud. It has not been easy. I had to fight through several months of denial and questioning if I had enough tenacity to live with this. I do experience high's and low's and lots of medicinal side effects. I have mutilated spots on my palms for blood testing. These are all apart of the new rule book. I am prepared to live this life.....