...in case you missed me...
So I've decided to get back in to writing blogs and connecting with beets people via the world wide web because I've been having a hard time lately. None of my friends and family exactly know what I'm going through, so it's hard for them to help. I think it would be beneficial to talk to you guys, since you know what it's like.
I need a change. A healthy change. My diabetes has been far from in check lately, and I can't seem to shake my junk food cravings/habits. I know everything there is to know about healthy eating, and I used to be SO good at doing it, but right now I just can't get motivated. I SHOULD be, I am getting married in a little over 5 months, dress fitting in 3, and we want to start trying for kids soon after, so I know that I need to be back to where I was before.
The worst part, is that when I do eat the junk, I'm not taking the proper dosage of insulin because maybe then I won't gain the weight. I'm almost too ashamed to write that, but maybe someone is going through the same thing and they can offer advice.
I feel like I've been screaming for help, but apparantly not loud enough. My fiance gets mad at me when my blood sugar sky rockets (a lot lately) and he doesn't understand that when it's that high and I feel sick, I need support the most. What I don't need is someone yelling at me saying how simple my disease is. I know that his anger and frustration is because he wants me to be healthy and around with him for the rest of our long lives. He's as frustrated as I am, but I don't think he quite gets the way diabetes affects my ENTIRE life.
I need a break, but I can't take one. I need someone to understand, but it's hard for them. I need support in more ways than, "it will be okay". So this is where YOU come in.
Got any advice to offer? Stories to tell? Need a beets friend? I'll be here!