Okay. It's me--Judith in Portland. Ning is misbehaving tonight and I am trying to return home to TuD and I can't because it is not receiving Profile pix---unless the Cosmic TuD is really p***ed at me for exiting.
I sort of fell down the "rabbit hole"….waay down...I mean gasping for air waay down…withdrawing to safe places like my garden, my walks, acupuncture. Between the chronic pain of fibromyalgia and arthritis; the constant vigilance required to manage those plus the D plus two bad injuries in the last year---well, I couldn't take it anymore. I found myself posting at TuD responses much too full of darkness and that is never what I want to bring to this beloved family that has sustained me through so much. So I just left. And now I know I need to come back.
It's interesting isn't it? Very few of us have sat together for a holiday meal---turkey or matzos or the breaking of a Ramadan fast or a solstice candle-lighting----and yet here we are at that time of year and I deeply miss my TuD family, so even though difficulties continue, I'm coming home where I belong. Forgive me, for any distress I may have caused. I will rebuild my page slowly (if Ning lets me) with some of what was there and some new.
I will bring back my journal of caring for my mom as she was dying at home of kidney failure because it would have been impossible to get thru that without all of you. And as much as I can of communing every year over Huck's death and I think the Parallel Walking one. Blessings on us all…Loving you all…Judith in Portland…..
TuD is resisting me returning as Judith in Portland, but I've got Emily on it, bless her heart, and I know she ill help me....xx000