Difficult to race through this life as a person with T-1 w/o getting caught up in the pursuit of perfection. Every day, 10 to 12 times per day, I am scored on my ability to control T-1. Every 4 to 6 months, I get blood drawn and discover what my new HbA1 number is this time. Every 90 days I see my endo for an update at my skill as a practicing T-1. With all of these checks and balances, I could easily become focused on perfection instead of focusing on a life well lived. What's a T-1 gal to do?
From 1980, when I recieved my first blood sugar machine, until about 10 years ago, I kept detailed logs of my bs and insulin demands and activities. Books and books of numbers that taught me how to live in the real world and still enjoy food, friends and fun. But my HbA1c left a lot to be desired. So I stopped! I didn't stop checking my bs or bolusing, I stopped obsessing with perfection. I started to,enjoy my life in between taking care of the Big D and focusing on the little moments w/o worrying if I was being a "good" or "bad" peep with T-1.
A very cool thing happened. My HbA1c numbers came down, my health improved and I was able to experience more time in between the times I address T-1 responsibilites. I started to take trips by myself, on my motorcycle, in a car, walking, train travel in Europe . All kinds of adventures that allowed my new attitude towards inperfection to blossom. Nature is not perfect why should I be the exception?
Over the past 49 years, the medical biz has put a lot of pressure on this peep with T-1 to be perfect. They are wrong. No one is perfect, nothing is perfect and there is beauty in inperfection. So, try to stop beating yourself up when your numbers stink and just do the best you can. Be true to yourself and not to the impossible ideal laid before you by people who do not have to live like a T-1 or T-2.
Good luck my friends