My name is Angela, i'm 16 years old and looking desperately for some advice. This is only my second blog post and my first was entitled "Out Of Control." I wrote this one in the middle of my school year because I was feeling a serious lack of control on my diabetes because of my own personal defiance. The comments I recieved were extremely helpful and very heart warming so I hope for the same support in this blog because I feel that support might just be what I need. Anmyway,it's the end of the school year now and i've made a lot of positive changes in my life. First of all, I had serious depression and anxiety but the counciling and medication since my last blog have helped drastically, in fact, I feel like a normal teenage girl again. Well, because of this, I tookahold of the things i've wanted since the beginnning of my depression. Now, I have great grades, much better relationships with my friends and family, and most of all, acceptance of my responsibilities. I love this change in my life, I feel that it was a highly necessary step in my life and I can say that i'm proud of myself for doing it for and by myself. Well now that summer is just around the corner, I want to tackle the final and most important responsibility in my life: my diabetes. My A1c had come down quite a bit but not enough to be healthy or allow for me to drive. Now,i've been trying to modivate myself for 3 years to control my diabetes by myself but when it comes down to it, I am highly defiant and down right lazy. I know that these qualities should be easy to change, and they were easy when it came to changing the rest of my life, but my diabetes seems impossible to conquer! I should mention that I have a tendoncy to give up on things that seem to difficult and the key to changing everything else for me was just telling myself that I want it so badly and it really isn't that hard so don't let anything hold you back and boom. I did it! Now how control alifedisease that I have a hate-hate relationship with? Self help books? Managing diabetes books? Better work ethics? I have no clue,so if you have taken the time to read my blog, please help. I'd love to hear what you have to say! :D Thanks.