I must've started and deleted this blog a few times before committing to writing about myself.
For starters I'm 32, married, no kids as of yet. I met my husband when we were both 19 and have been together ever since :)
Yes I feel ashamed of it,embarrassed by it and very scared. Perhaps not so much now because of this site I came across, and I have one lady to thank because of it "Elizabeth". The same night I became a member of this site I was looking for other stories of people that were just as embarrassed of this disease as I am. I came across a young girls story and many people had responded to her...the one that caught my eye and pulled at my heart strings was Elizabeth's. It was a heart warming story that had me in tears..OK maybe not in tears but VERY close to it.
I am a "newbie" and I do find myself Google searching the terms used here lol omgosh there is so much diabetic lingo I'm not familiar with :S
I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes 2 months ago, prior to that I was a prediabetic. My doctor at the time (he is now retired and was the only doctor I had ever known my whole life) sugar coated things. When I found out I was prediabetic I was horrified but thought to myself OK I can do this, I can change this and be "normal".
I stopped drinking soda, cut out all the junk and chocolate, white bread etc. My #1 temptation CHOCOLATE and began to loose weight. I did some exercise but didn't feel motivated.
My family has a history of diabetes it runs on my dads side many generations before, and I have seen what this disease can do to you first hand. My dad has many other health problems, but I've seen him have a heart attack, stroke, and loose toes because of it, and I don't want that for myself. With that being said my dad doesn't take this seriously,he eats what he wants when he wants.
I began to see my new doctor who also happens to be my husbands doctor, He wasn't all warm and fuzzy as my doctor, he was straight to the point and before he gave me my diagnosis he called my husband into the room. My first thought was "oh sh**t"
All I remember him saying was "type 2 diabetes" and the rest was just like charlie brown's teacher when she talks. I didn't say a word as I was afraid to start bawling right then and there (I don't like to show emotion).
The drive home was long, from Etobicoke to Mississauga, and all I asked of my husband was not to talk about it, as I was afraid he'd say "I told you so" You see, my husband means well he's been loving and supporting, even stopped eating chips and junk food in front of me, even as much as started dieting with me, but he is athletic, and I'm not and although his heart is in the right place he does say things that hurt such as "I told you so".
I have only told a total of 3 people. I first told my mom, who then told my dad and I had him swear to secrecy not to tell anyone as this was something I wanted to share with those I chose too. Next was my mother in law.
Why? Because I don't want a pity party or for my family and friends to look at me differently or to start asking questions and what not. I want to have as much information on this as possible and to feel confident in myself before I can start talking about it, I mean I have done a 360 with my eating habits and I do read labels and stuff (which I never did) and of course I have major cravings for things and just replace it with something that has absolutely no flavor or is 100 calories or less...I'm a work in progress lol Oh! I have discovered diabetic chocolate!! some are gross but others aren't so bad ;)
I'm taking Metaphormin (500 mg)in the beginning,the side effects were BRUTAL. 3 times a day with meals, and I check my blood glucose levels twice a day (out of bed and before dinner) I'm currently down 10 pounds. YAY!
So this is me in a nutshell. I think I can get usto this blog thing. So far the people on here are SUPER nice and I am really grateful to have found this site. :)
Karla.
Comment by lotsofshots on March 2, 2013 at 9:58am I am really happy that you found the site. In spite of being scared and embarrassed you seem to be doing all the right things to take care of yourself. You have done so much in just two months! I think that the psychological part of diabetes is just as hard as the physical. I think everyone feels much like you do when they first find out. Once you have it for a while you will feel more comfortable. You have been exposed to what can happen if you don't take care of yourself. Now you can focus on the postives, eating right, exercising, and checking your blood glucose. Just walking is great for diabetes and you don't have to be athletic to do that.
I am glad that you are here.
Comment by Karla on March 2, 2013 at 10:29am 
Comment by Stemwinder on March 2, 2013 at 11:38am Hey Karla. You are not so different than me or any of the other T2 people in this world that has decides to confront this disease head on. The road to being better begins right where you are at. It is sometimes a difficult journey but one well worth taking. There is a great bunch of folks here a Tud to help you along the way.
I am a little concerned about the shame you say you feel. No one should be ashamed and no diabetic should feel alone. I would like for you to read this blog post that I wrote. http://www.tudiabetes.org/profiles/blogs/ashamed I wrote it for myself and for you and others like us. I hope you enjoy it and take it to heart.

Comment by Teena on March 2, 2013 at 8:04pm First and foremost...hugs Karla.
Do not be afraid, do not be ashamed and you are most certainly not alone and having diabetes is not your fault.
Be proud you are doing something about it because you wish to have a health happy life. I commend you for that.
Empower yourself with know;ledge ...you will be surprised what researches has found out about causes and treatments for type 2 diabetes. Im so sorry about how it is "stereotyped". Remember that what comes after diagnosis is what is important the most. You will be amazed that often we live a healthier life than some :)
hi karla welcome to the site wish it was under better circumstances. had a very similar story when i was diagnosed as a T2 at 26. I only told a handful of folks cause i was in denial about the whole thing. you're doing the right thing and coming to terms with it in time. be patient with yourself and learn everything you can about diabetes and find a doc that you can work with. good luck and stay strong
Comment by Karla on March 4, 2013 at 8:54am Thanks guys!
This truly is a place of love and support. Through my family doctor I have found a wonderful endocrinologist. Met him last week and I'll be attending his diabetes 101 class and some other fun classes that the clinic has set up such as taking a group of us grocery shopping lol
I was a bag of nerves when I went there - my stomach was in knots, my palms were sweaty lol but he's super nice. Thank you once again everyone for your comments :)
Comment by jujube on March 4, 2013 at 7:10pm Welcome and don't be ashamed of anything. I'm a T1 pumper diagnosed 2 years ago after a coma. Nope, never had any type of diabetes but that's T1. At first, I was very embarrassed as I test 8 times a day an shoot I wear a pump. Since, I stopped hiding it, I have had so much more support. I actually have a shopping group that I have taught "how" to shop healthy and I am glad to teach anyone something about better nutrition. I was forced to make a huge lifestyle change but the more I embrace it, the better I do and really, it's all about me now !! Something I have never done before.Yes, there are people who still have their ideas of what we should do and eat but as long as you are in control and your A1C is where it should be for you then just keep it going.. Love, Peace and Broccoli !!!!
Comment by MKSSS on March 7, 2013 at 8:47am This site is THE BEST! Honestly, my diabetes support comes from right here. You got questions? People here have answers (or suggestions to take to your doc). My husband was similar and I think part of them are just scared if not more than we are for us. My husband is a doctor and I have point blank told him "you are not helpful and stay out of my diabetes." I may have reacted in a moment of anger and frustration. Part of managing diabetes is managing relationships too. :) I think some of the fights/feelings come from the grieving process. Don't give up! We are here together battling this and trying to live as normally as possible with extraordinary circumstances.
Comment by Jean P on March 13, 2013 at 5:49am I am glad I found this site, I am just 3 months into testing and really tying to control my numbers; I too had a dr. that told me I could handle this with diet and exercise. I now take the metformin and diet and exercise and still have questions. I don't think it is anything to be embarrassed about - sometimes we just inherit from our families. It has got me serious about my health and I also lost 10 lbs. YAY!! Thanks for writing and encouraging me to answer.
Comment by MerylSW on March 13, 2013 at 6:07am Manny Hernandez(Co-Founder, Editor, has LADA)
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