I must've started and deleted this blog a few times before committing to writing about myself.
For starters I'm 32, married, no kids as of yet. I met my husband when we were both 19 and have been together ever since :)
Yes I feel ashamed of it,embarrassed by it and very scared. Perhaps not so much now because of this site I came across, and I have one lady to thank because of it "Elizabeth". The same night I became a member of this site I was looking for other stories of people that were just as embarrassed of this disease as I am. I came across a young girls story and many people had responded to her...the one that caught my eye and pulled at my heart strings was Elizabeth's. It was a heart warming story that had me in tears..OK maybe not in tears but VERY close to it.
I am a "newbie" and I do find myself Google searching the terms used here lol omgosh there is so much diabetic lingo I'm not familiar with :S
I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes 2 months ago, prior to that I was a prediabetic. My doctor at the time (he is now retired and was the only doctor I had ever known my whole life) sugar coated things. When I found out I was prediabetic I was horrified but thought to myself OK I can do this, I can change this and be "normal".
I stopped drinking soda, cut out all the junk and chocolate, white bread etc. My #1 temptation CHOCOLATE and began to loose weight. I did some exercise but didn't feel motivated.
My family has a history of diabetes it runs on my dads side many generations before, and I have seen what this disease can do to you first hand. My dad has many other health problems, but I've seen him have a heart attack, stroke, and loose toes because of it, and I don't want that for myself. With that being said my dad doesn't take this seriously,he eats what he wants when he wants.
I began to see my new doctor who also happens to be my husbands doctor, He wasn't all warm and fuzzy as my doctor, he was straight to the point and before he gave me my diagnosis he called my husband into the room. My first thought was "oh sh**t"
All I remember him saying was "type 2 diabetes" and the rest was just like charlie brown's teacher when she talks. I didn't say a word as I was afraid to start bawling right then and there (I don't like to show emotion).
The drive home was long, from Etobicoke to Mississauga, and all I asked of my husband was not to talk about it, as I was afraid he'd say "I told you so" You see, my husband means well he's been loving and supporting, even stopped eating chips and junk food in front of me, even as much as started dieting with me, but he is athletic, and I'm not and although his heart is in the right place he does say things that hurt such as "I told you so".
I have only told a total of 3 people. I first told my mom, who then told my dad and I had him swear to secrecy not to tell anyone as this was something I wanted to share with those I chose too. Next was my mother in law.
Why? Because I don't want a pity party or for my family and friends to look at me differently or to start asking questions and what not. I want to have as much information on this as possible and to feel confident in myself before I can start talking about it, I mean I have done a 360 with my eating habits and I do read labels and stuff (which I never did) and of course I have major cravings for things and just replace it with something that has absolutely no flavor or is 100 calories or less...I'm a work in progress lol Oh! I have discovered diabetic chocolate!! some are gross but others aren't so bad ;)
I'm taking Metaphormin (500 mg)in the beginning,the side effects were BRUTAL. 3 times a day with meals, and I check my blood glucose levels twice a day (out of bed and before dinner) I'm currently down 10 pounds. YAY!
So this is me in a nutshell. I think I can get usto this blog thing. So far the people on here are SUPER nice and I am really grateful to have found this site. :)