Its killing me. Before I was a diabetic i had such an immense desire for success. Now i just dont care about much anymore, i really dont. I dont know what else to say. Be strong? See a shrink? I've done both to no avail. I feel hopeless and the only things i want to do are lay around all day and make sure my bg isn't high. I wana kill myself sometime from frustration. I am at my wits end. I always told myself i would never resort to hard drugs, but as time goes on they seem more and more appealing.