I'm ashamed to say I havent been well controlled at all this festive season.
Today I tested for the 1st time in about 2 weeks and needless to say my levels are through the roof. Over 35 mmol! Funny enough, I dont feel as ill as I should be for being so high......? I have injected and i will be testing every hour on the hour until I get it under control again. My DP (diabetic policeman) went overseas for a couple of weeks and I used that to let my hair down and tried to "ignore" my tired old pancreas. LOL.
As you can imagine, I got into a bit of trouble on the 25th and had to have emergency help but my family were completely stressed out. My poor sister broke my tester kit by accident, she was in such a state. My brother was massaging my legs as if his life depended on it and my mother aged right before my eyes. They have NEVER seen me in such a bad way. Even my nephew, Joshua (9) told me the next day that "I prayed last nite Aunty Debi, I was afraid you were going to die". It broke my heart, and my daughter still keeps asking if I'm "better now?". For those of you who dont know, she's a Down Syndrome and she is my life. Makes me think I'm not as good a mother as I like to think I am. It was purely selfish reasons and I put so many people under stress, it wasn't fair on them.
So folks, please help me be strong, I have already commissioned my angels and the archangels to help so I'm in good hands for now.
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