That was the parting shot from my fertility nurse, WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT?
I thought that would be the last thing a fertility nurse would say LoL.
I'm getting ahead of myself here, soooo I did my shot of HCG on the Thursday, (and I believe the euphemism is we covered all bases *nudge nudge wink wink... ) Back to the jab, I felt very odd and emotional, I had the most bizarre metallic taste in mouth too and my insulin requirements went up almost immediately. Was it stress, was it the jab?... who knows.
I have to say I did POAS just to see a positive come up, it was very surreal and I felt a little peak of excitement that this was the first shot at having our family, though I had been warned that it was highly unlikely that it would be successful.
I was keeping an eye on my sugars because of the possibility, I never really believed it might be, but after about 8 days I got quite sensitive to smells, my insulin seemed not to be working so well and I felt nauseous every time my BG dipped below 4.5mmol... could it be, Nooooo surely not? I ummed and arrrrghed and POAS, you know, just incase, on the off chance, not expecting anything at all, and very quickly a pale but definite line came up... I felt sick and shocked. I must be imagining it, I thought my heart might burst, I didn't say anything to anyone... next day another test (gotta love that popular international auction site) again a slightly darker line, so it wasn't the trigger shot still lurking... I phoned my OH in tears and then my teams (diabetic and infertility) as I want everyone up to date and on the case. I nailed my BGs only 2 readings over 8mmol in two weeks, I actually lost
a bit of weight too with the extra healthy eating and (lack of quantity (due to nausea), sadly baby didn't make it.
As Heartbreaking and Gutting as this 'chemical pregnancy' was, that littlest one has given me a hope that I'd long abandoned, it was difficult to get right back on the drug train, as is necessary with clomid but I did it. To my dismay this month things are back to seeming as futile as they were before :0/
Multiple scans and checks for any hint of a follicle, but no discernable growth or development, my nurse is at a loss and My specialist is on annual leave, so currently I'm in that interminable place called limbo waiting to see what the next plan is...