Okay so I'm new to this website but i've been looking around and reading some of your blogs and i'm excited to know that i've learned new things already and that all of you seem so nice and supportive! I joined this website because I woke up one morning from a bad dream: my type one diabetes was killing me, probably because in reality, my blood glucose levels are WAY higher than the should be. Anyways, I needed new modivation to maintain my diabetes and keep up with all my doses off a syringe. I'm only sixteen and i'm already seeing the effects of not controlling my diabetes. I would love to just say: I can; I can just dose before I eat and check my glucose levels five times a day because that's what it will take to keep me healthy and alive. However I can't seem to tell myself this and just do it becuase, along with diabetes, I have depression and according to my therapist she says I see unrealistic goals (ex. I have to take care of my diabetes for the rest of my life and burden others), then I give up on them because they're seen as too hard. Then push comes to shove, I'm depressed even more that I can't control my diabetes, my parents are upset with me, and I know my future health is alreaady doomed. It's a vicious cycle and I recognize that I need help so I was hoping to hear comments if you have this same problem or not. I'd love to hear your thoughts, thanks for reading!