I feel so overwhelmed lately. I love my time with Lee but its so hard because a lot of days he gets really upset or cries when i leave, today was better i know they upped the prozac a few days ago so hoping it helps and keeps helping. I just want him home with me but the insurance is giving us the run around with everything. I found a house that would work great only needs ramps and a bathroom redone. But no they want to build, in teh SPRING! His discharge date is Oct. 28th exactly 5 months after the accident. And they would build a 400 thousand dollar house this one is only 189 thousand. If we wanna just live there free we can but then if something happens to him im out on the street pretty much. Or we can own by making the ins monthly payments. would be a lot easier on the 189 thousand dollar house! I want Lee home now, not next year! The hospital wont keep him that much longer! So the ins said well they could put us in a handicap rental until then, umm even teh drs said Lee needs permanent and NOW not to go from house to house and we have 8 pets, how many rentals will let us have 8 pets? We been renting from my parents thats why we have so far! I had major depression and bipolar before the accidnet, right now im just sitting on my bed typing and crying. Been trying for 2 days to get ahold of my therapist but yesterday she didnt call back adn today she had to leave early and still didnt call back. I dont let Lee know im depressed. I go see him in the mornings and deal with lawyers and Ins and my medical in teh afternoon. My dr wants me home by 1 to take my pain meds and nap/rest. I barely sleep anymore, pain meds arent doing much anymore, i need that back fusion but i wont do it till were moved to where were staying its at least a 6 month recovery the first month will be mostly bedrest. I can do it once we have a home because Lee will have home health care and the house i found is perfect and very open, wide door ways, since he needs a hospital bed id give him teh master bedroom and i would be right accross the hall id set it up where we can see each other thru the door ways. That bathroom would be turned into a handicapped bathroom. Even has a sun room and fire place, both very therapeutic.for both of us. I dont let him know about my depression because his is so bad. He doesnt know how bad my health is either just that im giogn to a lot of drs. I tell him what i can but some is hard to lay on him when he cant help.