First of all I'd like to say that I very possibly got off on the wrong foot here. I am a very shy person until I get to know someone and then I tend to say things that are taken the wrong way....so I've been told all of my life..."it's not 'what' you say but how you say it...so if I've offended anyone here I'm very sorry. Plz forgive me. Then if I feel overwhelmed I tend to disappear which I know I've done also. I have anxiety/depression and PTSD....right now the depression is RAGING, my bsl's are HORRIBLE even with 60 units of Lememir, 20 mgs. of Glipizide a day and 1000 mgs. of Metformin ER a day!!!
Yesterday I ate ONE biscuit....ONE left-over porkchop (unbreaded) and 2 thin slices of roated turkey lunchmeat (2 grams of carbs a pc)....that's it and my bsl was still 285 @ 5:27 p.m.
The neuropathy in my hands was driving me insane the day before, yesterday not quite so bad...BUT I believe the Gabapentin is making me MORE depressed. Anything that makes me drowsy (even though I've been sleeping better and it's helping the neuropathy I'm in tears constantly and having bad thoughts that I'm fighting. I feel so angry that I could rip the aluminum siding off of my house with my bare hands!!
After not eating hardly anything yesterday my bsl was STILL 259 this morning!!!!!
WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME???? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME????
Please help! I do have a doctor's appt. on Sat. @ 10 a.m. and he's going to hear it!!!!! I can't live like this. I'll go back to my pills when I was getting about the same #'s and didn't have neuropathy so just dealt with the hormonal depression for a few days out of the month and then I was ok again.
I feel like I'm losing my mind!! I would NEVER harm myself because I have my 3 (kitty) girls to take care of....but I really can't deal with this much longer.