Hi everyone, this is the first time for me to ask for help i usually try to help others when i can or read the posts to learn from them. lately i feel like im stuck in time and don't know why. i have asked my doctor and endo, with no helpful answers. therapists are a joke, they want to push more medication or lock me up.
Last year my two kids were in an auto accident and my son was killed, i have done everything i can to stay busy. Tons of question keep running through my mind and i don't sleep much and when i do sleep it is hard and i wake up with a jump or i dream that my son is still here. my family is no help, my sister is fine to talk to when i have a bad day and on a good day she finds a way to bring me back down, then says "just move on you can't bring him back so forget him."
I can't forget him he was my baby for 19 years. they don't care since he was not their child and they didn't know him like i did, my son and i were so close that we knew when something was wrong with each other. then to make matters worse my ex-husband has guardianship over my 23 year old daughter and im not allowed to see her. she was also in the same accident and has head trauma, cant walk and has a 3 yr. old daughter herself that she don't get to see much. my ex is an alcoholic and the father to my grand daughter wont allow my ex near her, cant blame him.
I just cant get answers to know how to handle everything that has been happening and now my sugars always drop. before all this they were slightly high, working two jobs and taking care of the family. investing in the new products to help manage my diabetes and my world revolved around my son. Now they are low most of the time and depending on my sugars my mood swings and i get mad for no reason. I use an insulin pump and recently invested in a Dexcom 7 and i am finding i have alot of lows that i didn't know about before. when i make an adjustment to keep the bg higher then i have no appetite so the bgs fall again
Sorry this ended up longer than I thought, but im open to suggestions to resolve my situation.