Alright, so for a few months there at the end of 2008 i was going through an "i hate diabetes, this sucks" stage and i was testing my blood sugar once a day at most...no joke. I was being yelled at by my parents and i had several stern lectures from my endo about having better control and testing a lot more. It made me even more mad and really didn't make me test anymore then i had been. So this went on and on and on and on.
And then 2008 was finally OVER! I was so thrilled! 2008 was the hardest year of my life...even if im only 17. I was diagnosed February 2008, a good friend died that June and i was having a lot of depression and anxiety problems...not to mention having to deal with High school. So anyway, it was finally 2009, i was finally given the green light for the insulin pump and something just kind of clicked on in my head.
I had it in my head before that it was the end of the world for my blood sugar to be too high, and so i wasn't testing as much because i knew it was going to be high. What i realized was, that if i was going to start off this year with a fresh slate, it didn't matter the number on my meter, just that i was testing throughout the day, so that i would know how much insulin to give, which would in turn make my numbers better.
So it may only be the end of January, but ive been working really really hard at testing at least 4-6 times a day, which i felt was a good goal that i could reach. The really amazing news was that when i had a representative from the Animas company take a look at my numbers, she said that i was actually testing a lot more than most people do! I hadn't realized it, but i had been testing around 8-10 times a day! I felt so proud of myself! I can already tell that this year is going to be tons more amazing than last!