Raging diabetic, new to the community..
Couple questions (sure more to come)
If I post a blog, does it automatically post to the groups I've joined?
Do I have to be friends with people to read/comment - or as long as I'm part of the groups that I'm interested in?
What's the friend aspect about? Similar to facebook?
Now on to what I'd really like to discuss
Friday is D-Day..Insulin Pump Day. I've chosen the Omni-Pod and am really glad I found this community because as many of you know, it's scary and a time filled with questions. Although I'm part of the diabetic "epidemic", there's not always people who can warn me about "occulusions" or "screamers".
By the way - those are my next two questions.. and to politely ask: WTF? Probably the two most concerning things I've came across so far.. "occulusions" and "screamers"..
My fiance is going with me Friday for the hook-up. I'm nervous and excited. Also can't help feel disappointed because I've always been told that pumps are for the fat kids that just can't get healthy and lose the weight. Which I'm sure isn't the case for most type 1's, but I'm a type 2, and although I was fed hope that if I could just lose the weight I could come off some of the meds.. I guess we can say, graduation to the pump is only 2 days away. Although commencement is being surrounded by uplifting messages of hope, ("the pump will change your life" - "imagine not having to take all those shots anymore") yeah yeah, I hear you, but at the same time, I just can't help but feel like I've failed, for the umpteenth time to lose weight and this is my punishment. or reward. Can't decide if it's good or bad really. Trying to put it into words is tough really.. like now there is no hope for me to lose that weight and get healthy. The Omni-Pod is now going to be part of my ongoing threesome with French fries. A love triangle gone comletely wrong. A constant reminder that my 3 month at a time commitments to diet and exercise are never going to work because I am now attached to the consequence, a constant reminder of falling off the wagon and into a medium container of Mcdonald's fries one too many times..The life long commitment to them seems to be stronger than any bond I've tried to make with diet and exercise..
Well enough about that failed relationship.. I am just hoping that Friday goes smoothly, and that my first experience with an "occulusion" or "screamer" doesn't send me running away from becoming a pumper. or podder. ha, don't know what I'll be really. But to wrap this up, I enjoy writing and I'd assume, the longer these posts become, the less people will want to read them. Thankful I've found a group of people who might get it.. Friday is D-Day.. wish me luck. Hope someone will find my need to talk useful.. or entertaining.. or both ;)
(and Damn.. I just hit "preview" and thought I deleted my whole first post... Hope to get the hang of this sooner than later. Ha.)