It's been less than a week into my new pact with my best friend and fellow diabetic Andrew Grabowski (who had the wonderful idea of blogging on this awesome site) and I'm already finding it to be a struggle. It feels like I'm living such a hectic life where I'm too busy putting different things on top of Diabetes on my priority list (if that makes sense?). I know that Diabetes should be near the top on that list, because it's my health, but since I've had it for most of my life ( I don't remember a life without Diabetes) I'm afraid of become almost desensitized to it. I say "Yes, I know" to the list my endocronologist tells me: you can get a low blood sugar go into a coma/ have a seizure, you can go high and go into a coma/have seizure, you can loose a limb, you can become paralyzed, and the ever popular you can DIE.
Yes, I know all these things, but it hasn't happened yet right? I know this is probably a negative attitude but I don't know how to change it. I am trying to do the right thing now that I'm on the Better Betics pact, but I guess I just haven't had that "defining moment" about my Diabetes. Am I the only one that feels like this? Because, sometimes, it sure feels like it. Well, I'm going to go test and try to continue to do my best- Martha Ann