In my life, there seems to be a real theme, every few months I'll get into a low mood. Sometimes due to my diabetes, sometimes due to life in general, sometimes due to work, more often than not, it's a mix of them all. Recently I've hit that point again, work has been very stressful and tough recently, added to that staff on the other end of the radio who make a difficult shift even worse. I've just had a week off, and feel like I'm going back to work as stressed as I left a week ago.
The real problem for me is that when I'm in a low mood, my mind drifts, when I was a teen and was on a mixed insulin, I unsuccessfully took a od on insulin, so unsuccessful no one knew about it but me, even though it was a large amount. Two years ago I changed to basal bolus and promised myself I'd never do that with the insulin. As it would be a lot easier to be fatal. Every time I get a low mood, I fight the thought, I might be strong to get through 14 years with diabetes with no issues, no complications and no hospital admissions, but when I'm at my weakest, I have to be much more stronger.
Diabetes and depression is a problem for many, and notoriously affects a persons control and compliance. The two together can easily become fatal, especially through no compliance. Sadly there isn't really enough research out there about the two, other than you are more likely to suffer depression if you have diabetes than the general population.
I guess when things get tough, you just have to dig deep and take it a step at a time.
(I don't really know why I wrote this, I guess I just wanted to get some thoughts out.)