I just wanted to share.
I have been type 1 since the age of 27. To make an extraordinary long story short, I have never had good control. Great doctors, lots of ideas, none of them worked. I went on a pump one month after diagnosis, and that didn't help. I was bedridden for 3 months with meals made and measured for me; ended up with an a1c of above 8, and that's the lowest it's ever been. I am computer savy, resourceful, and a quick learner, but this is the one thing that has always gotten the best of me.
I've read and listened to stories of other diabetics who agonize about getting under 7. I am happy when I stay in the single digits. I tried Novalog and Humalog. I tried Symlin- great for 3 hours, but then I just spike anyway. I've tried various exercise over the years- everything from running to yoga- to no avail. I joined a gym and hired a personal trainer. Nothing changed. Last October, my doctor decided to try taking me off the pump because they suspected site absorption problems. Although I have enjoyed my pump vacation and have learned quite a bit, my numbers have not improved.
Then, 2 months ago, I changed doctors. She switched my short acting insulin to Apidra. As soon as I started it, *everything* was different. I would bolus, and come down! I had lows! I actually had to start carrying glucose around with me! I cried with joy!
Then I had my period. After that week, everything went back to the way it was. I tried everything I could think of. I didn't do anything different when it did work and I certainly couldn't figure out how to magically make it work again.
So I went back last week. I brought my numbers and was in tears, soooo frustrated and scared. I'm about to hit my 10 year mark so I'm terrified complications are going to be showing up every minute! Her theory is that I've developed a resistance to insulin (I've posted in another forum about having insulin antibodies). She gave me Symlin again, switched me to Lantus and gave me a script for Metformin. At this point, we figured, it couldn't hurt to try. She said if it works, it would take a week or so to build up in my system.
Last Wednesday was a week later. Since Wednesday nite, my numbers are like they were when I switched insulins. My very awesome and amazingly helpful pump trainer, Liz, came over Thursday to help me get back on the CGMS. I cannot *believe* that those little dots on my own pump could make such a flat, stable line!! Yes, I've hit the low 50's a couple of times, but I've also only gone over 200 once in 48 hours!
So.... this long ramble...
When can I get my hopes up for becoming a "normal" diabetic?
Or, better question, how can I keep my hopes down? Or should I even try?