Thank you for the Birthday wishes! If I am not mistaken you are a fellow Virgo as well no? When was/is yours?

Hello from the Shire the Sun is shinning although there are some dark clouds about birds are chirping away in the apple tree and our cat smudge is eating her breakfast then she will clean herself and go and find a comfy place to sleep all day,I hope you are keeping well best wishes twiddlemthumbs

I'm baaaaaaack!! hee hee I've missed this place. How have you been?

Hi Muragaki! I am sorry for your loss, three funerals in three months is a lot. I am trying to wreak havoc where ever I can. I have been okay. Just trying to deal with the loss of my grandmum. Keep doing damage. Live life to its fullest. Be well my friend.

Friend...Are you okay? Is there communication? I am holding you and yours close in my heart. Has anything changed in terms of offering support? Another payday next week so we can make another small donation----same place? Or have you found one more effective lately. My husband is an emergency manager and we are very aware of how Fluid these situations are!....Hope you are caring for yourself so you can stay strong.....

Muragaki, hi. Came over to see how you were doing?

Thanks for your comments. We are a diverse community with diverse opinions. People should speak their mind, I like that. I don't care about being called wrong. I have been wrong. People should weigh in on matters. What is good about have a large community, is that our discussions can reveal the truth even when individual opinions differ greatly. It is the "wisdom of crowds." I never take things personally, and I always try to remind myself that someone who disagrees with something I say may turn out to be a good friend in the future.

Hi, thanks 4 the poll. I found it quite reassuring, especially as I suffer with mental health probs and feel down post of the time. I am glad I am not the only one. My mental health problems extends to an almost complete denial of my T2 diabetes. I no longer take my medication and my blood glucose is permanently in the 20s - reading taken now 22.4. I have 4 young kids with special needs: aspergers, ADHD, behavioural problems and autism!!
I took the poll and answered yes. In reality, would I do it, probably not. I am so glad there is a forum like this here.x

Hi Muragaki, thanks for add too! And she isn't from China, but her mother is! It's funny that most of the Asian people i meet while out with her automatically know she's 1/2 Chinese without seeing her mother too, but it does earn me some suspicious looks from time to time. Even had a lady grab her by the arm to try to "find her parents" when i was standing right there. Oy! I think Sky learned a few choice words that day, heh.

Thanks for the friend request. I haven't consciously dropped anyone, but one person, that I can think of... so I know you must not have been on my friend's list yet. No problem on me answering. This is a horrible situation that warps and bogs down the mind... and affects families in terribly scarring ways... And it leads people to want to make judgments and lay blame. You see it even now in the Arizona killings tragedy -- people wanting to lay blame everywhere... To everyone and anyone who might have remotely contributed... It's the nature of human beings, especially when it is something soooo poorly understood.

Muragaki,
Being bipolar since 1963 and ultradian since 1998 I have had to become friends with suicide. I am not afraid of it anymore, but I respect it. I have cultivated friendships with people who understand this very complex thing and I feel quite safe now even though I think about it many times every week. I have banished all my past traumas and I feel terrible now for no reason at all. Not many can understand it.
Don

Yes, I hope others respond to the suicidality topic as well. I teach Community College and when I talk about suicide I am very aware that either someone in the class or someone they know will benefit from the information.

Thank you Muragaki, I do not qualify for housing subsidy at ths time as I am on medical leave from my job until end of April. ( In other words on paper I make too much money)

I do have a few other options.. all of which would be as undesirable as the one I am in.
I understand that my situation is only temporary, and I can handle it for a little while longer..sometimes I just need to rant and get it off my chest so as to not IMPLODE!!!! lol
I have 3months to plan my escape....I dont want to make any rash decisions at the moment..
What I really need is to focus on my health. The ranting is just a tool for me to do so.

I like how you look at it :)

Happy new year to you too

Thanks for sharing your story with me I found that really interesting because like you I have lots of people in my family with type 2 I'm the only type 1 but we do talk about it but I still feel like they don't really know what I got through everyday yes we both have diabetes we both test our blood and watch our sugar but having type 1 and being hocking to an insulin pump I just feel like they are both so different and that living with each type is different I do wish that people were more informed and definatly informed that there are different types and how they are different but as much as I wish other people just knew these thing I know there are probably plenty of people in the world with other cronic dieases that I know nothing about and they probably wish I just understood

Just wanteds to say hello hope you are doing well. Happy New Year Sweetie!! xo

Thanks for the birthday greetings.  It's been a while since I posted because I've been in and out of the hospital and busy looking for a place to bury my head!!  The whole world seems to be coming down around my head lately. 

 

Lois

 

We have more of a Grey than White Christmas but if it snows here then there is outmost chaos in Europe.

Blessed Christmas!