My diabetes is being so silly. I just finished my first year with type 1, and I'm still in honey moon. It's totally bugging me. There thinking about if I actaully do have diabetes or not. Maybe I have type 2 instead. Who knows.?
Hi Ariel Grace! Welcome to the club! Cool name for a snowboarder, btw! ;)
I was diagnosed when I was 10 1/2 months old, so the big D has just been a part of my life. I tried to rebel against it in college, and that didn't work out, so I'm trying to get my control back now.
Through the duration, I've felt angry, confused, hateful toward the disease and myself... It's a natural process to grieve the onset of a disease or illness, even if you've had it a while. I know I suffered the "why me?"s starting in grade school, but I'm starting to see it more as a blessing, as weird as that may sound. I eat a lot healthier than my peers, and I know a lot more about body processes as well. I didn't really start getting on the right track until I found TuDiabetes, even though I'd gone to diabetic youth camp. I didn't do anything like that in college, so finding a network of people just like me helped greatly.
You're going to feel a lot of things, and no matter what anybody says, just allow yourself to feel the for a while. It's a process. Don't bottle it up. Upset? Post a message board. I guarantee hundreds of us are feeling the exact same way.
If you learn to work with your diabetes rather than against it, things will go more smoothly. That said, do not, under any circumstances, expect absolute perfection of yourself. Expecting perfection in an imperfect world is a practice in insanity! Make mistakes, then learn from them. Try different things, and learn what works for you. Nobody but YOU will have the right answers for your diabetes. It took me 27 years to learn this.
You're going to do great, Ariel. If you ever have any questions, please feel free to ask. We're all in this together, and we're all here to support one another. Take care!