Hi Type2Tommy! I'm sorry you're feeling stressed out and overwhelmed right now. You don't need me to tell you again that this is normal and will diminish with time, but here I am, telling you anyway. The emotional component of diabetes kinda comes in waves. Feel free to come to us to vent. We've heard it all -- and felt it all -- ourselves over the years. Shock. Denial. Anger. Resentment. Acceptance. Belly laughs. Frustration. Irritation. Burn out. Calmness. Yep. All of it. Here is a big (((hug))) from a Type 2 diagnosed approx. ten years ago.
Your BG's were a LOT higher than mine were at diagnosis (mine was more like a 12-hour fasting of 140, caught at my annual physical.) I imagine you must have felt horrible in the 500's with no clue as to what was wrong! Yikes. Of course it will take some time for you to recover from that and adjust to normal blood sugar again.
Two quick tips that work for me (we're all different so I can only speak for myself):
-- Switch up the fingers and use the sides of the fingers (about an eight of an inch in from your finger nails), not the very tips or pads. If you rotate through fingers and use the sides, it will probably hurt less, heal more quickly, and result in less scarring and loss of sensation in your fingers. I'm a classical guitarist so I baby my fingers and after ten years of testing, testing, testing they're still fine. I also press HARD on the poked site with a bit of clean paper towel after I put the blood on the test strip. I find the pressure reduces the perfusion/bruising under the skin and I get a lot less pain (maybe 3% of the residual pain I got before I figured this out.)
-- Make a list of your 25 favorite foods and go over this list with your dietician or your new diabetic buddies. You might be surprised at what you can still have, or have with small modifications in preparation. Maybe you can't eat an entire "Paula Deen donut burger" (ew!) but you can still have grilled lean ground sirloin, sliced tomato, sliced onion, pickles, mustard, etc. Maybe you'll have it "Atkins style" without the mealy white-bread bun -- use two thick leaves of lettuce for your "bun" -- or skip the high-sugar ketchup and use a little tomato paste instead, but you can still have delicious meals. Lower carb doesn't necessarily mean the days of enjoying food are over.