I hardly ever test, bolus, etc. I honestly don't know how I'm still living. I just never feel sick so I have no motivation to get into a routine and take care of myself. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated. I know a lot of people get motivation grom their significant other or family members but my family sees nothing wrong with my health either and don't know how to motivate me to do what I know I need to do and have done when I was younger.
How long can your body handle an A1c of 9.7 - an average of 214 mg/dl? Do you really want to find out? Perhaps you have a major depression and with some helping advice better times will come. Please seek help - your family needs you.
Not to be morbid, but go and do an image search on "Type One Diabetes Complications". When you're done being sick to your stomach, go test your basal rates and start testing :D
You may not feel sick because you probably don't remember what it is to feel good. I second Holger's suggestion about checking to see whether you're suffering from depression and if you are getting some help. Why not pretend you're starting over and just check before each meal and bolus appropriately. Even that small change will make a world of difference in how you feel and that improvement may be all the motivation you need.
I think in the end you have to decide to love yourself. You know that high blood sugars are harmful. You shouldn't live your life for others, you should live it for yourself. If you can't love yourself and care about yourself, it really doesn't matter what you significant other or family does. In the end, all that matters is whether you care about yourself.
I personally find this website inspiring - I go through a week or two of crappy diabetes management, and then I come on here and read stories from people who are so good at taking control of their diabetes that I am inspired to be the same. And isn't it motivational to know that it's possible to be better?
Thanks for the whole "your family cares about you". I honestly don't think I'm depressed. I know that sounds like denial but I don't have any reason to be depressed. I just don't feel any motivation to do what I know how to do. I looked up the images but how do I convince myself that it could happen to me. I guess I don't feel like a really love myself but I don't feel like I WANT to die. I want to be a high school teacher and am in college right now persuing my dream. This website is amazing!! I also love getting on youtube and watching some of the videos on there.
Thanks for your support!
Do you have a good Diabetes team to work with, Elizabeth? If you're not motivated it might help to have a good professional who will give you tips and cheer you on. Setting small goals is a good way to start so you don't get overwhelmed. Like say, testing and bolusing for breakfast first. Or getting your basals tweaked first, whatever, just start somewhere. Also reading and immersing yourself in D related activities. Using Insulin is a good basic book to work out all the numbers, but perhaps someone else can suggest something that is lighter and more motivation oriented?
Finally if you can find a Type 1 group you will have others around you who will be good role models for you and motivate you to do more for yourself. If you don't know of any hospital attached programs, you could check with the JDRF and see what they have available near you. Some branches have started to focus on activities for adults. I think that might really help.
"the book of better" by chuck eichten is an excellent, lighter book on diabetes. he talks about how any little improvement moves us towards "better". very entertaining, but also informative and motivational, written in a very accessable style.
I don't know how long you have had Type 1 but one thing I can tell you is that it eats effects you from head to toes and from the inside out. When you will finally feel the comps it will motivate you because it's like a cancer...it's silent until the comps become more pronounced. It takes time to affect you. My suggestion is that you get motivated because only you can do that and no one else.
I've had to hire a lot of teachers.
Teachers are role models. Now it's YOUR TURN to get yourself in role-model-spiffy shape. Stick with me here: My A1c is 5.7 to 6. Teaching means keeping it that way. Teaching is scheduling, prepping, and professionally managing. It means for me:
7 am I test and record. I give my 11.5units of Lantus.
8 am I'm out the door having eaten a 16 gram carbs breakfast and taken 4 u Humalog. a 1:4 ratio, and in the food book: exactly what I ate, 16g, and 4u H
12 noon I test and record. I eat a 20 gram carbs lunch and take 5 u Humalog. I record what I've eaten in a food book - to the right, 20 g, and to the right of that, 5 u H.
2:30-3 I test and record. I eat a second 20 gram carbs lunch and take 5 u Humalog.
6pm I'm back home, test and record. Eating 20 grams carbs supper, fish, salad, 5 u Humalog.
7:30pm Test and record. Give correction if needed. Often there's evening activity.
9pm Test and record. Give 1.5 u Lantus.
Getting ready for teaching as a life's work requires routinizing, routinizing, routinizing.
I think positively setting up a routine is what you need for teaching and if I were your supervising teacher, I'd ....... Include diabetes management in your routine so you have NO SURPRISES.
I could try negative motivation. I have lots of stories of how people got into trouble when they had no testers and no strips. Disability is no fun. But getting ready for a teaching profession is the better challenge, and it requires getting yourself ready to be the role model that parents want to meet with, that parents want their children, their teens, and their college students to look up to.
Wow that is kind of eye opening! I suppose parents would want their children with the best role models like I always have. I honestly think that when I started working a job that has crappy shifts put me out of routine. It's deffinately time to get back in one. Maybe I need to find a better job that let's me have some consistancy.
YOU make the routine. YOU make the consistency. YOU create it. YOU are not some blob being pushed around by a job. Teaching isn't a job. It's a PROFESSION. You DESIGN it.
You set GOALS for EACH day, You INSPIRE your students to WANT to ACHIEVE those goals. They fashion themselves after you. Take ahold. This is a great OPPORTUNITY!!!